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Wednesday, June 30, 2010

It's a marathon, folks




Things have been whirling along a break-neck speed ever since Aleni was born. And really, it's mostly none of her fault, since she is about the easiest baby in the world.


Most days, I stumble off to bed feeling tired to the bone, yet having finished nothing. It seems that the to-do list only gets longer and the minutes get shorter. That the harder we run, the less we accomplish.


I have heard myself whispering (if only to myself) "Once things slow down...." Telling myself this is a soon-ending state of affairs. Somewhat like the mental difference of running a marathon and sprinting 200 meters. One you dig deep and settle into a steady pace that you can hold for a loooong time... and the other you suck in a deep gulp of air and go for it.


Today, I was showering and thinking, "Once things slow down a little--" and then I stopped. An image flashed into my mind of a person I know that often heaves a heavy-hearted and suffering sigh as they mouthed those same words. Over days, months, and years. A lifetime, really. Of not enjoying the present--of looking ever-longingly into a future that never came.


It then hit me: This is the new normal. This is my pace, my stride, my race. I need to wrap my mind around that, get into a rhthym I can sustain for however long it takes--and figure out how to thrive in it.


Now to find that rhthym.

2 comments:

  1. This really reminds me of Jim's sermon on Seasons...we expect our life to be on an upward trend all the time, when in reality, it's a journey of lots of ups and downs and "normal" boring stuff. Like you said, it's the NOW that matters.
    We watched Hot Rod with Jess the other night, and I leave you with a quote from that epic film: "Life is pain. You have to scrape the joy from it whenever you have the chance." : )

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  2. now i REALLY have to go listen to that sermon... :)

    don't leeeeave me...! hahah... the "epic film" part.

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