So, things haven't been going as planned. Or, even as hoped. In many ways--they are actually going better. But, one vital element is missing... and that element makes it harder to enjoy the rest. As we are at six months of living off of unemployment (thank GOD that it's available)... I have felt myself becoming brittle and dejected. It's easier to focus on the dead-ends going in many directions, than to rest in God's wisdom and see the beauty he gives us at each dawn.
Today, wasn't a bad day. We did fun things. We went out and came back. It was just me--I was bad. I was down and not the most fun to be around.
As we walked out for our nearly daily trip to the apartment pool (I may have been trudging)... I found the thoughts spooling themselves through my mind were not the most positive, and definitely not centered on the here and now. I scowled at the trash blowing around the apartment complex, shook my head at broken things that have laid unattended for too long...
Then, I stopped. I asked God to focus my eye on his beauty instead of the obvious disappointments. To help me embrace the moment, rather than sacrificing it on the alter of future worries.
So, I took out my camera. And saw beauty, everywhere.
It's there, in her confident smile... her pensive expression... her sun-bronzed skin. (Why is she so tall??)
It's there, in his boyish need to be silly and yell "Gotcha!".
I see it in their bodies--the strong muscles, the bright minds; the health and ability.
And this one... because.... what's more beautiful than an "Awkward Family Photo"?? Ha!! :)
These photos are so fun! I can't believe how big they're getting!!!
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